this is very random, but i've been thinking of starting a podcast.
i wonder if this is so that i can get out of writing blog posts in favor of just vocalising thoughts.
what would the podcast be about, i guess? probably about stuff on my blog. still debating.
maybe i'm just being lazy.
given recent events, i'm going to try to encourage myself to write more.
it gives me a structure for me to frame my thoughts around, and helps me to better shape my viewpoint on the world, whether through my lens or others.
i have a list of topics linked from my front page that i'd like to write about sometime. if there's something that you'd like me to write about, let me know.
for those who are observant, i've moved to write.as.
i really really wanted to keep using hugo, but there were two issues that arose during my usage:
i used to keep everything on my macbook pro, especially at university. that doesn't happen anymore – i use a windows computer (mainly for gaming) at home and that laptop is relegated to light browsing.
i tried to solve that by using forestry.io, but honestly motivation on trying to upgrade hugo without breaking my theme constantly (this was an issue a couple of times) was rock bottom.
so i've abstracted that out. honestly, i was thinking of hosting something like ghost, but i didn't want to deal with the issues of self-hosting + the price.
i tried svbtle, but lack of custom pages + ssl on custom domains was a dealbreaker for me. i really liked their ideas to posts flow, and i wish write.as had a similar ideas page which i could create posts from (they have a notebook mode, which is nice, but that'd end up on another blog).
so here we are. let's see how it goes this time. maybe, just maybe, this will encourage me to write enough. i hope.
it feels like it's been forever since I last blogged; even moreso when you actually count the years. life keeps moving fast paced and when everything's just coming at you and trying to wear you down, you spend all your energy trying to withstand the tide; and then where's the motivation to blog? stress release was better served then by reading, gaming, or just – sleeping.
but recently i've had some major life changes, and it always seems like i blog whenever something major happens. in a way, my life is very boring if i've found nothing to blog about; but that was actually because i could adequately explain what has happened in my life and that suited me fine.
recent events, however, have left me utterly speechless and reaching futilely for words which i couldn't define. trying to form a sentence left me floundering in a word puddle that, frankly, didn't make sense and just irked me, because I thought, I used to be better than this! but it turns out no, not anymore, because I haven't written in ages.
so when these recent events hit, i was kind of at a loss for words. and it's been extremely hard for me to even begin to figure out what was happening. so i'm going to try to motivate myself more to blog more; to speak more; to write more clearly and contextualize what i could not before.
hopefully it'll work.